Silence

Silence

The world outside of these four walls

Being just as out of reach as a cobblers chocolate 

chip cookie on the top shelf of the pantry.

Silence

once again slamming the doors shut behind me,

like a draw bridge of a tower

making them impenetrable with barbed wires and bullet prof metals

making them unopenable from the outside with 

locked chains wrapped between the handles like slinky coils

Silence 

you finally allowed the room around me to stop rotating

I can feel the smile that was once plastered on my face 

like the posters on the walls of my prison cell 

smear and melt off the surface of my face 

like makeup once a drop of sweat attacks

Silence

you have learned not to keep me to my own devices 

You have taught my mind that my body and my heart are the enemies, 

the ones who deserve this solitary confinement so we can finally be safe.

You have allowed my thoughts to play the records of every

“I love you” lost loved ones and twist their words to better tighten the restraints,

The better and sooner cut off the air supply so 

I become nothing but a cute little piece of 

furniture you have the abilities to say you own.

Silence 

You have become the master of my sleep patterns, 

my self-love movements,

you’ve been in charge of my free time the people 

that I am able to use every dime on the dollar to use 

in hopes, they haven’t forgotten me.

You have manipulated my schedule, molding them 

as kids playing with slim,

I’ve tried to find ways out, to slip through the cracks and 

see more light then I have in years 

Silence

You’ve given worry and fear full rain over my emotions,